Mermaid Mantra by Bloomified
Breathing in life’s undertow
Never needing to even know ….
Deeply, entrenched; engulfed by walls
Trapped in secrets; myths told by all …
Within – the only place where she can start
Luscious locks and eyes controlled by the heart …
Impossible to grasp – slippery to the human hand
Never craving to come up for air – disgust for troubles of the land …
The curls run wild – they are who they are
A paradox of joy and pain, defining her bliss thus far …
Forever a mystery, to her, and to you,
A heart of deep waters, refusing to let, just any human through.
In many ways across the country and in the world, we are called to be more than human. In order to do this, we must go inward and listen to the heart. When I first decided to analyze my own heart, the journey took me out of a lie I was living and into the truth of who I craved to be to the core. Since then, I have learned to connect on a level that protects me from evil, conquers the wicked, and protects those with good intentions. I craved this kind of shield, so that I could be ME to the max without getting anxious, and then show others how to build that fortress of love as well.
Hard choices were made to put this heart on blast, and like a marathon, I had to train my mind, read a ton of books, listen to the ocean, play certain songs on repeat, write until I couldn’t stop, and finally submit myself to God. God was the hardest part in the journey in the end, because He is not as popular as you think; believing in Him is a challenge in itself. But staying true to this code of collective data that I have been researching for years and storing up in my heart, is the only thing that allows me to consistently live in peace and radiate with new ideas, passion, and zest for everything in this life.
People think love comes naturally.
They think you were born nice and personable. They think you inherited it from your parents. No. In fact, it is the exact opposite. Most of the time, those who choose love become very isolated. You feel so alone at first and would rather live somewhere in the woods all on your own. At one point, I had even made a pact with myself that I was a lone mermaid. But then, this journey comes full circle as you enter the next stage of love.
As it gets more challenging to stay true to this evolved version of yourself, you learn to accept the even greater challenges ahead. You know within that you’ve built up such a foundation of love and respect for yourself and others, that when pressured to stick to the goodness of this world, you JUST WILL. This understanding of being able to trust the love within you, is a form of faith in God, or faith in yourself. Faith is stronger than trust. From dealing with terrible people to turning the other cheek, from doubting yourself to seeing the dots align for your dreams to come into fruition, it takes belief in this inner love to have faith that it is all coming together.
Love makes you feel bad for the false actions you’ve committed and crave to do better all the time.
Most people don’t want to feel bad for the way they’ve acted or even confess for that matter. But every time you come through with humbling yourself in such a way (especially for the little white lies you tell all the time), you grow ten times more in this realm of love. When you humble yourself, life seems to cut you a break for genuinely owning up to your faults. BUT THE TRUE TEST AFTER CONFESSING SUCH FAULTS IS … DID YOU CHANGE AFTERWARD? You cannot own up to something and keep being a liar, or manipulator, or whatever your go-to list of BS is. Your faith in this Inner Love will help you fully transform; fully change and choose to do good. This moment of evolving will naturally happen if your heart craves to define what is good. Another note to add here is that you cannot own up to a fault only to receive something in return. Love is not a genie; it doesn’t bargain or make deals. Your intentions must be real and pure. You will know your intentions are pure because these types of loving reactions are not premeditated one bit. This is not something you have to teach yourself. Those good intentions are already in there – YOU just need to move out of the way and let them come to the surface. (Prayer and meditation does help bring these good intentions to the surface more.)
Once you’ve reached a more consistent way of behaving out of love, you will naturally radiate when people are trying to hurt you.
Like a signal of some sort, love protects you from people functioning at lower, petty levels looking out for only themselves. It prepares you to stand up to such bullies of the world, where you magically find the right words to say, reflecting goodness and truth as a weapon. After a while, this Switch of Love cannot be turned off. It will be there for you to rely on in every situation, no matter how difficult or uncomfortable.
To understand the skills and effects of love, you must allow yourself to be pummeled at least once in life. You must admit you are not in charge. This is usually when people get on board with God, whether they already had a relationship with God or not. I was pummeled by life and grew up Catholic. During my rough time, going to counseling was out of the question because I had no insurance, so I really had to figure it out fast. In a practical way, God was free. After much work on myself that did not cost a penny, I finally came full circle to admitting that I was not in charge. God paved a way for me to find my way back to myself, to the child I always was and am to this day. It was the most resourceful thing I ever did.
This kind of Love I speak of allows you to dream with no limits and accomplish anything you see yourself wanting to do.
You do not control the universe nor your own fate, but if you tap into Love like this you will begin to ride the wave of just following the dots toward what you crave. Not being in control does not hinder you in any way, but at the core of this way of living, love is still more powerful than everything you are. It has to be because it is the force behind all opportunities, decisions, trust, patience, and respect. What seems to be a list of easy 1st Grade values to master, is actually the hardest list of concepts for adults to fully embrace. We have been serving ourselves for so long that we have pulled together our own little philosophy of lies to prevent us from having to be even meet the bare minimum of honesty or the bare minimum of reflection.
If we learned to trust the loving force behind all we do, we wouldn’t lie, cheat, manipulate, bargain or disrespect family members, co-workers, spouses and ourselves. Love takes looking at yourself in the mirror and applying all you say and do to YOU and ONLY YOU. Nothing else helps you function at a higher level. And after all is said and done, you will have to still work at maintaining this higher plane of living, constantly failing along the way, but here and there finding consistency. Until one day, you realize, you don’t want to fight the battle anymore. So, you submit yourself to Love all the way. For me, that submission was the moment I actually admitted I believed in God. I literally opened up my chest more, breathed in effortlessly, and trusted that everything I truly crave and need will come into being so long as I stay this course of trying to be honest with myself out of love. When you let God in, or even admit in the tiniest of tiniest forms that you want to see Him in your life, you will begin to see Him all the time. You will see Him in your place of work, in your family, in the people in your life, in the connections you make along the way, in signs on the road. Like doors opening magically, they will continue to open for you.
It doesn’t matter if you believe in Him or not which is the best part – which makes writing so easy.
Love is simply there all the time waiting to be tapped into. It is the ultimate foundation within all of us. It is there lurking inside. YOU are the only barrier. We either choose to give in or not. Some days are harder than others. To make it easier for me to accept this love we for some reason are all given, I imagine I am still swimming in the ocean back at home. And in those times of peril when I was getting crashed on or swimming super far out, I did not fight the wave. I had to trust the sand below me, to pop me up, or trust that something bigger was at play. That soon, I’d catch a wave in. The current was always there for me, even in the worst of times. These times in your life seem like patterns of moments when God saves you. That’s when it naturally clicks, and this love of God, or love within you comes alive in a whole new way. It becomes a foundation you can count on.
Don’t let the world around you or the people in it get you down. You are protected from it all if you believe you are. You are able to change and better yourself if you want to. You are able to love and be loved if you choose to. These decisions come from within – brutal – but necessary to live a life at a higher, more peaceful level, where accomplishing your dreams is not hectic, but enjoyable, blissful, even heavenly. Find that love within yourself, so that you can be more than human – maybe even part-mermaid.